The eye visit

So I took Landon to an eye appointment this morning. Because of having to do this I have worried for weeks about it! So I have just spent tons of time praying. Last night I was sick to my stomach and think it was partly due to worrying all day. I didn't really know what to expect from the visit, and no parent wants to hear that their child has any problems. It has been enough that he has had four ear infections since birth... and he is only 11 months. I was so worried that I asked both my mom and patti to come with me. Zack had to work! :( So with all that stirring... I anticipated the visit.

The appointment was for 8:40 this morning. When we arrived early, we had to do paper work. Then for the wait...wait...wait! The doctor is the only ped. eye doctor in the surrounding area. So the wait was forever to even get an appointment, and a long wait in the office. When the nurse came out 10 minute(which was the longest ten minutes since Landon was born) I thought we were ready for the visit. No... more paper work and questions to be taken care of! YUCK.... I hate paper work. After that we went back to the waiting room. Which I give mad props to Morganton Eye Physician, because they have a child's waiting room with movies and toys!

Finally the time had come for his visit to really begin. Dr. Beton came out and was super energetic... and so happy to be around. That started to relax me, but I was still worried about turn out. She did a series of test, which she played with Landon the whole time! I love it when Doctors take time to be personable...that is why we love Dr. Benfeild! When she was done with those series of test... and he was still happy I thought that was it. She gave us the news that she had just diagnosed him with "Congenital Ptosis." She then said, "Which means he has a droopy eye, duh." So since I thought it was done, I let out a big sigh. I thought... "Wow that was easy."

Then came the news that it could cause vision problems, so they had to dilate his eyes to see if his vision was fine. Putting him through that process was pitiful. It broke my heart, but I held it all together really well I think. It took me, mom, and patti to hold him down to get the drops in. He cried, and cried, and cried. I almost cried.... I did have a few tears. Then she came back in and we had to do that process all over again. The nurse was really sweet though. After that was completely done... (YOU GUESSED IT)..... WE HAD TO WAIT AGAIN.... for thirty minutes. Apparently it takes dilation drops that long to work the right way.

When we went back with the doctor again, he was no so happy. He, first of all, was really sleepy, and second his eyes were bothering him. It took all I had in me to get him to sit through the first of two more test to be done. After the first one, Dr. Beton taught me a restraint that I had to use on little man. She did the second test, and we were for real.... ALL DONE! YAY! No eye problems, PERFECT VISION! NO MORE VISITS UNTIL NEXT YEAR! HOORAY!

Landon's condition is completely cosmetic. Dr. Beton said that we didn't have to consider surgery until he was a teenager. At that point we will let him decide if he wants cosmetic surgery. We won't make he have it if he doesn't want to.

That was probably the worst thing I have ever had to go through. It is no fun watching your baby hurt, or being worried that something is wrong with your baby. I love that child with all my heart, he is my heartbeat. He became my heart outside of me when he was born. It makes your heart so happy to hear "everything is fine with your son." I love that feeling of peace, and relief.

Thank you Lord for answering our prayers. Thank you for creating Landon So unique. Thank you for allowing me to be his mommy!

My day!

Today was kinda crazy! I woke up too late to get all I wanted to get done, done. I just made it through getting the house back striaght and clean. I hate cleaning all these crazy hardwood floors... but I love having them so it's worth it! After deciding what to cook for supper, I went out to the grill to turn it on.... and guess what.... the gas was all gone. I had apparently left it on thursday when I was in a big hurry to get to youth. So I fryed pork chops instead of grilling them. Not really our favorite but it worked. I didn't get to workout like I had originally planned, so hopefully I will tomorrow!

I spent the better part of my evening trying to keep Landon entertained. He was not in the best of moods, because he has a really horrible diaper rash. We are working on getting rid of the fourth ear infection within 11 months, so the antibotic gives him a diaper rash. :( It truely hurts my heart to see my little man hurt! He cried everytime I had to change his diaper this evening. Hopefully the mylanta will work tonight. Yes that is right I said mylanta. Dr. Benfeild suggested that I put that on his bottom when he gets a rash. So between that, powder, and nystain.... maybe it will be mostly cleared up by tomorrow morning. I can't stand seeing him hurt, so it better be. I like my baby being happy. Which for the most part he is.

Even though it's not been a horrible day... it's been a crazy one. Have a great night!

The Beginning of the already existing

Well where to begin in my already existing life? I guess starting out why I want to blog. I really just wanted somewhere to put my thoughts and ideas out there. Also somewhere to vocalize my passions and dreams. Somewhere to express to my husband and son how much they mean to me. So here goes!

So today I was playing with Landon in the middle of cleaning house... and realized that just in one month my little baby is turning one. He is becoming more of a toddler than a baby. He will always be my baby! But WOW he will be one! Time goes by way too fast!

I am so thankful that God gave me this adorable little boy. It was a hard process to get him. After being told he would never happen outside of adoption, we were very suprised to find out we were expecting him three months into marriage. It was not a complicated pregancy, but after 1 and a half weeks of labor and then 20 hours after my water broke, he about died. They had to do an emergency c-section. God must have big plans for this little kid, and I am so honored that he chose me to be the mommy!